Personalize your weather (NYT on-line link) hmm wonder what that means...
I am in the grips of the National Democratic Convention at night and in the steely grip of her Oneness during the day, and running around taking care of Patrick in-between, I need to personalize my weather or maybe climate. Her Oneness arrived while I was in the midst of taking care of Patrick who has yet again managed to get some strange life-threatening illness. She needs various life-saving remedies such as her very expenisive and remarkably ugly lights hung, her organic foods in the fridge (which she then never actually eats) and gazillion other things to ease her own, oh so very difficult daily battles (Armani or Ralph Lauren). Meanwhile I am at the hospital bitching to overworked exhausted staff about hot water in the shower and not placing an AIDS patient next to someone with a staff infection or covered in shit. I saw a man with toenails that wrapped around his dirty toes and were cutting into the underside and old people left to lie on stretchers for 2 days! This health care system has got to stop!!!! the ER is filled with people who could so easily be taken care of by a doctor or a local health clinic but have no choice but go to the ER for primary care for headaches or colds only to have really ill people get no service at all. I did find it odd that when the police brought in a man in handcuffs he was taken care of immediatetly (while we all watched in a morid facination). Maybe I will have to commit a crime in order to see a doctor!
I need a new climate. I need to focus on more positive things although at this very moment they seem as far off as the Hamptons. What is good about my life (climate)?.
Here is a list:
1) I found out that I am healthy after all (broke down and paid for a test after certain worries).
2) I have wonderful supportive friends and family.
3) I have certain freedom not afforded to many.
4) I have had more love from wonderful men than most women I know.
5) I have never been abused, belittled or mistreated (like so many women I know).
6) I had a most wonderful childhood (which did not quite prepare me for the weirdness of adulthood..)
7) My niece, my wonderful, beautiful, well of joy and hope.
8) My Charlie, my window on the secret world of teens and boundless love (he'll buy me a helicopter when I get old).
9) I am content and at peace with my life choices (as odd as they sometimes seemed).
10) I am grateful for all the films and art and music yet unmade and for those that have sustaned me thus far.
Hey I feel better, the weather has changed, in fact it is thundering as I write this, the powers of nature to strike down and destroy us should never be discounted, I am glad to be alive.
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