Liberated from evil

Monday
...Heavy rain expected this evening... (weather report).

Walking in drizzly rain on CPW today I was idly thinking about nothing in particular when I spotted a woman who had this really odd, shiny big eyes, like she was crying or freaked out. She was one of those society ladies swathed in Burberry and Chanel and was carefully picking her way down the sidewalk on impossibly skinny sticklike legs. Her face was like a mask, her skin stretched so tight over her thin face that she looked like a skull, a skull with big shiny eyes. Her strawlike hair in a little attempt of a flip stuck out at odd angles, maybe it was a wig. I wondered if she was ill, or just starved herself for looks and lost a sense of porportion somewhere along the way. I wondered if she has a rich husband or if she was divorced, it seems improbable that any man would find this attractive, so maybe she was ill. It started me thinking about my own obsession with getting skinny before summer, and although I felt a certain revulsion I also felt exceptionally fat. I guess it is what one compares oneself with. But then I had dinner anyway, a very small dinner, but a meal....