about 2 months go by and in a way much has happened and in a way nothing at all.
life is back to a comfortable groove after my adventures while away and now it is time to add some spice to the mix. i either have to find a new job or seriously scale down. not that there is much to be scaled down, i live a simple life just by occasional pair of great shoes and go to the bar with my friends, i guess i could give up the bar if needed. i really hate the idea of getting a job in some horrible office and to be at the mercy of the lunatics who are inevitably in charge (how do they get these jobs?). i am working on an application for a documentary film to be made in europe if we secure funding, which should be interesting it would take up the next year or so, but that may be just a dream.
in the mean time i have started gathering experiences from the 'dating scene' and that is proving to be a very interesting social experiment. there sure are some odd people out there!
i have learned so much about americans who, although i have lived here for gazillion years, have mostly managed to not get involved with (men that is). it seems to me that there is a huge disconnect beteween desire/lust and reality/expectations. everyone wants to have insanely terrific sex but are also consumed with fear of intimacy and rejection. people seem so torn between doing the right thing (marrying some appropriate person) and a deep desire to 'give in' to temptation, only to be followed by regrets. i don't think i saw that in the movies. oh well this is after all what i like the best about the US, the constant controversy, it is charming, albeit a bit predictable and soon to become rather boring.
i am thinking of going to Rio for some fun soon, now there live people with no time for regrets!
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