"$ 5.00 for your shirt.." a bare-chested bum on Broadway..
it is strange to be back uptown at my old job location (different building), i keep running into people i used to know and eat at restaurants i used to eat at, everything is a bit deja-vu all over again. the past few moths have brought so many 'used tos' back: old friends and forgotten acquaintances resurfaced, old boyfriends suddenly nostalgic calling me in the middle of the night, distant relatives wanting to connect, all very strange. i am back in my old gym class twice a week, but this time i am much fatter than i used to be, so some things change i guess... i am ever-so hopeful that i will soon be like i used to be...
the hot nasty weather persists and fall is nowhere in sight. i defiantly packed away my AC and floor fans and most of my summer clothes, but may live to regret it as there is promise of several more days of 80 degrees or more. i booked my ticket to the motherland and will take 12 days to recharge and consider my future. i don't know what i want to do, my job is very nice and excellent people, but i haven't made a decision yet whether i'll stay or not. i just don't feel like i can make a commitment at this time (my stock answer to my very nice bosses), i feel a little like a cad in a relationship with a marriage minded gal, who has no intentions of being trapped... besides there may be something (one) better out there...
my oh so chaste life took a sudden downturn recently, i think what contributed to my downfall was the very lethal combination of excessive drinking, drugging and gambling... "hey seemed like a good idea at the time..." ugh, i hate coming to work with alcohol practically poring out of my pores and my mouth feeling fur-lined and falling a sleep during boring meetings (after stabbing myself repeatedly with a pen to stay awake..) but going away will change all that.
on another note i have had time for some forays into the world of art, couple of concerts (yes, i actually left my apartment a couple of times) and the museum and a film festival, all very inspirational etc.
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